Dear Rupert,
The more things change, the more they seem the same. Still fighting it out with my creative muse and the motivation that it takes to really excel in the world. I know that the ticket is just to keep fighting, keep pushing forward and trying to make it happen. I took out another try to listen to 'Ode to Joy' and right now I'm working under the influence of the wonderful piece. In the next room, TUM is playing Ave Maria. Such calming music, music that is so simple that it's difficult to pull off well.
As long as we're moving, it gets a little better, right? As long as we're moving, we don't have time to think about what's going to go on in the future or what has happened in the past. Just keep moving so the tendrils of complacency don't stick... and everything will be fine.
I'm finding that I have conflicts between the parts which want to do work and the parts which say that I should be relaxing. I sit there and try to figure out whether I should be relaxing and enjoying myself - the part in the back of my head tells me that enjoying myself means not pushing the ball forward. So, I end up stuck in a quandary - because there's very little that I would rather be doing. I've told myself that I need a hobby - but maybe, just maybe, the hobby can rest for another day.
I hope that you're doing well, Rupert. I look forward to writing you again soon.
Brightest blessings,
Emily
